I remember ......

[Twisted Titan]

So I am sitting here thinking and recalling a time very long ago.



I remember when my wife was pregnant with my Baby, it was a tedious time, but extremely exciting and anxious, boy do I remember the anxiety.

well one day i got a call from her and it wasn't good.


she just got off the phone with the doctor and she said that something was wrong with the baby ... my wife was high risk because of her age , so lots of additional tests were ordered and one of those test came back with a reading that my baby had downs syndrome and further tests are needed to confirm .

my wife was trying to put on a brave front but i could hear the worry in her voice.

I didn't even feel sorry or scared, I was just numb, because she was pretty far along, so you get accustomed to getting good reports only to be blindsided.

But I didn't miss a beat I told-her point blank:

The baby is fine.

but how do you know that??...the doctor said ......

I SAID THE BABY IS FINE.

I told her I had to go and we will talk later.




I remember it as clear as crystal , I was sitting in a Starbucks looking at the passing cars because there were big ceiling to floor windows so you can take in the aesthetics of the city .

Then doubt started to creep in and play with my mind.



why did you do it ??
you knew she was too old, so why?
This is what you get for living like a wild dog.
oh you thought calamity was just going to tip toe by you??
You drew the short straw buddy ,better get a abortion now or be stuck with a dummy baby for life.




My heart started beating outta my chest and my mind was doing flips.

I didn't have much faith back then , and wouldn't darken a church doorstep for grace but I do remember a few lessons that my mamma told me:




She said we are to pray for one another and bear each others burdens , when it becomes too great to do it alone .

so what did I do?

I ran my happy ass double time to you guys...



I remember I started a thread here , I think it was called : Prayers for the wee one ......... I explained the situation and then i had to leave because I was attending night school at the time .

The school was only 4 hours, but it felt like eternity, and my mind was twisting in the wind .

I was at the lowest point in my life back then...




But then I got a break and logged on to the site and started to read.

Man o Man.....

The thread had just exploded and everybody who was anybody was piling in hard and heavy.





Don't worry T, your baby is going to be fine.

One of you guys said I literally just got up from praying for your child.

I think someone else had a pray chain going with others or the church they were attending.



I cant remember the details but I remember the tsunami wave of comfort and gratitude I felt on that day .

You know More and more I find out that The bible is certainly true because the scriptures say: fortunate is the man who acquires a good friend, because you guys showed up, to pick me up up , when I couldn't stand up.




Later on I found the strength to talk with my wife in a manner that gave her confidence and after further discussion we decided to decline any further testing linked with the downes syndrome and we just stepped out in total faith and trust.

And God brought it to past to deliver to us a very healthy baby girl....




Fast forward 7 seven years later.........




My Girl is in private tutoring, she is 3 belts away from getting her Black belt in Tae Kwon do and I put her in a contemporary dance just on a whim and the instructor was so impressed with her natural ability she gave her a full scholarship to attend the dance school in a very exclusive part of town that I would have never had the money to pay for .




yeah everything is just peachy keen.... but it would be wise to remember when it wasn't and the future was in deep doubt and the going was narrow.




My Mom use to say the greatest thing you could do for a person is say thanks and really, really mean it.

Well I am here to say thank you and I love each and every one of you guys ... you were there for me when it counted the most.


And may the kindness you did for me, may it be counted as righteousness before God Almighty on the Last day.


I remember......
I remember......
I remember ......

[Neuro]

God bless you!

[madfranks]

What a testimony! It's good that you wrote this down, even here, because time tends to numb us to the blessings that God has given us. This will help you remember it seven years from now. Thanks for sharing, and may God continue to bless you and your family!

[Twisted Titan]

You know I think you were the one who said ." I just got up from praying for your child"

I cant remember what everyone said ,but I do remember that one cause It stuck out for whatever reason. It gave me a high level of comfort she was going to be okay.

Weather it was you or not...

You get a personal thank you from me.

Thanks baby...thanks a million.

[madfranks]

You know I think you were the one who said ." I just got up from praying for your child"

I cant remember what everyone said ,but I do remember that one cause It stuck out for whatever reason. It gave me a high level of comfort she was going to be okay.

Weather it was you or not...

You get a personal thank you from me.

Thanks baby...thanks a million.

I think I remember that too. Man, we've been here for a long time haven't we?

[Twisted Titan]

True story on that one.

You know for fun I went to the way,way back machine and saw some posts I did on GIM


BOY you wanna crack up??

I got six billion guns
Uncle Sam ain't gonna do diddly squat to me
Silver is going to 3000 a oz.

And of course all of this was going to happen in the next 12 to 36 months so we have to top off our preps before the big one hits.



I busted out laughing writing that cause for years I was living on the edge of the apocalypse

I have come a loooooooooong way in my thinking

[madfranks]

True story on that one.

You know for fun I went to the way,way back machine and saw some posts I did on GIM


BOY you wanna crack up??

I got six billion guns
Uncle Sam ain't gonna do diddly squat to me
Silver is going to 3000 a oz.

And of course all of this was going to happen in the next 12 to 36 months so we have to top off our preps before the big one hits.



I busted out laughing writing that cause for years I was living on the edge of the apocalypse

I have come a loooooooooong way in my thinking

Ha, me too. I remember asking for advice on GIM when I had to move out of state back in '09 on what to do if the SHTF during the time I was in one state and my wife and kids another. In hindsight, that was a silly thing to worry about, but I'm still glad for all the prepping I did back before Obama became president.

[Neuro]

Ha, me too. I remember asking for advice on GIM when I had to move out of state back in '09 on what to do if the SHTF during the time I was in one state and my wife and kids another. In hindsight, that was a silly thing to worry about, but I'm still glad for all the prepping I did back before Obama became president.

I don’t think it was such a silly thing to worry about in hindsight. The total collapse was certainly a very real possibility, and would have happened unless Ben Bernanke et al had opened up immediate $25-30 Trillions of systemwide guarantees on rotten debts.

Of course next time around not even that would be enough, and I think the time it will take to spiral out of controll will be much less. Many won’t even know what happened so suddenly.

Probably we’ll see gold gaining hundreds of dollars per day prior to collapse, don’t fall for it.

[Twisted Titan]

Maybe it will,maybe it wont what matters the most is .

I dont care.

Even if you get the big bag of marbles and all the bells and whistles to boot.

What does it matter cause on the last day your most prized possession is going to burn away in a fervent heat.

I set my eye on things enternal.

I use to envy rich folk ,did my best to compete with them so I can stand in the winner's circle

Now I just pity them.

When i see one gawking and acting like a belligerent asshat making everyone beneath him feel like shit

I now say : live it up buddy, live it up good and proper cause if you dont get right with the Creator, this is very best your ass is going to see for all eternity.

[Neuro]

You don’t care about society collapsing? Perhaps you should since you have a healthy 7 year old daughter? I think it is to early for someone in your shoes to prepare for the afterlife by ignoring what goes on in the world now and in the Near future, doesn’t mean you should ignore the creator, nor to chase riches...

[Twisted Titan]

You don’t care about society collapsing? Perhaps you should since you have a healthy 7 year old daughter? I think it is to early for someone in your shoes to prepare for the afterlife by ignoring what goes on in the world now and in the Near future, doesn’t mean you should ignore the creator, nor to chase riches...

I want you to think about something:


boom boom ......pause.....boom boom......pause ......boom boom......pause.......boom boom....... boom boom..........beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep


Do you know what that is?


Its your heart...we take for granted that it just beats fine and dandy...we even think that we are in control of whether our hearts beat or not.

HA Ha Ha


Nothing could be further from the truth .

the very next beat could be your last and there isn't a dam thing we can do about it, all the whooping hollering and protesting aint gonna do jack crap that you drew the short straw.


its in that vein I realize how much I do not control , there is but a very small sphere that I am given permission by The Creator to supervise over and that is it.


Why do i spend more time mediating on death and thus things eternal???



Cause The bible says so if you want to get wise.....

Teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom. (Psalm 90:12 (https://biblia.com/bible/esv/Ps%2090.12))





And the wisest man who every lived on the face of the earth (Solomon) reaffirms what his father David said:



The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning, but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth. (Ecclesiastes 7:4 (https://biblia.com/bible/esv/Eccles%207.4))






I found out when you frame life through the glasses of death a lot of unnecessary mickey mouse bunk falls off by the wayside.

life also get a lot easier to deal with when things dont go your way.

Just a observation I have made

[Neuro]

I want you to think about something:


boom boom ......pause.....boom boom......pause ......boom boom......pause.......boom boom....... boom boom..........beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep


Do you know what that is?


Its your heart...we take for granted that it just beats fine and dandy...we even think that we are in control of whether our hearts beat or not.

HA Ha Ha


Nothing could be further from the truth .

the very next beat could be your last and there isn't a dam thing we can do about it, all the whooping hollering and protesting aint gonna do jack crap that you drew the short straw.


its in that vein I realize how much I do not control , there is but a very small sphere that I am given permission by The Creator to supervise over and that is it.


Why do i spend more time mediating on death and thus things eternal???



Cause The bible says so if you want to get wise.....

Teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom. (Psalm 90:12 (https://biblia.com/bible/esv/Ps%2090.12))





And the wisest man who every lived on the face of the earth (Solomon) reaffirms what his father David said:



The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning, but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth. (Ecclesiastes 7:4 (https://biblia.com/bible/esv/Eccles%207.4))






I found out when you frame life through the glasses of death a lot of unnecessary mickey mouse bunk falls off by the wayside.

life also get a lot easier to deal with when things dont go your way.

Just a observation I have made

Sorry! I had forgotten that you had issues with your heart some months ago. I guess your mindset makes more sense to me now then. Still for you and your families sake I hope you get out of it. Sure death is a certainty for all of us, but I think it makes sense to try to live life to its fullest potential which actually involves envisaging a future of those loved ones around us if not for ourselves.