Dusty
11th August 2010, 02:45 PM
There are some on this board and the other one , I truly may need to apologize to , My brother may be one,
(even he failed all the tests sent to him)
I went crazy over the last month or so and may so for a tad into the future.
I haver no animosity , like most, I am not a hater, I have met vets of ww2 walking the streets, maimed.
and whenever I see this hitler, right, v/s stalin left , I have met people from both sides , that were very real and
personal with the shit that went into their lifes..
Hate , of the old school and we have such a rich field of new crap to go after?
the racist ??
Wish there was a time machine to put them where they want to be, sorry to say, modern times they are are on the
proven fringes and will NEVER make a mark or ever a stain in history.
I hold to my china thingy...may not in my life time, but in a sick way I do hope I live to see it.
To those I did hurt,
I apologize, there was a time of doubt of sanity and willing to really want to live. Easy ways are so easy.
Better to go down in major flames.
End results are the same.
dead is dead.
Most of us have seen the changes in the neighborhoods that we live in.
I have monitored police (ham radio) for the last 30 yeares and the up tick in shit
is astounding..
this nation is close to going ballistic. now for the haters , no hitler will not be reborne.,
I attacked my brother from frustration, , from small contacts , wishing for larger , could not travel
because of pets and obligations , (One of my basic deep me,s us cause no harm) and I have ,
not physical , but in a world of total shit heads and their followers , yes I did.
MY major thing that I went ballistic with my brother way being ignored. despite my tryes to heal and
understand,
We split wen I was (12-10) years of age,
so wE were dependent on what the adult's in our lifes.
I again apologize ,if what I accused you, but what can be remembered
and grandparents , Rich your father was dirty.He was the first mayor of national city..
To be turthfull I hated him.
I see him , and the only time it seems it was during the beatings.
Not you ,.. or cliff.
So here I am 60 years later , having tried to connect to be a family again in past in not in heart.
And after at least 5 years of trying , being ignored like my father treated me, ( which is enother story of rage,but for the readers
sheets split, about the time one is born, the father trys to kill.
but survives ,and family says nothing, total time , 0 his knowing or trying.
fast foward , ..
Thought you all could read all of my history,, ..
Eat shit and die..
for the ones that hate me..
I will go down fighting the ones want to chaing history, One of my first statements I have photos
of people , and bodys in gas chambers and later the what I call the smokersl.
Lady.. sorry
for the rest , most of the fokes on this forum. are level headed.
then wen have the
Left that open..this political shit ,,
It makes me sick..
If it keeps I do make a prediction ,..(sp) We are screwed and bluerd and tattoed..
And the hurt is filtering down.,.
The main thing is an apology, to the only one that counts.
the rest , (not the majority) hell I know most have not lost it totally yet.
Bit for the true believers of that Nazi shit.
I will hound you to your grave..
Again I apologize. And this is the last one..!
I went after my brother, and his history..
because of a old tradition of family's and shit that is part of it.;
Rich may not be dirty,
Cliff, he was the active one,.
but being a kid and what hancock grandpairents said ,
I know this is a hard crowd and I am also, fuck you all.\
most I respect, just a small number , I do not,.
and will never will..
This post is an open forum to the lady that I drug into this shit that should haver been mentioned,\
again sorry,, as most can see my attack is not quite over,
Charles
(even he failed all the tests sent to him)
I went crazy over the last month or so and may so for a tad into the future.
I haver no animosity , like most, I am not a hater, I have met vets of ww2 walking the streets, maimed.
and whenever I see this hitler, right, v/s stalin left , I have met people from both sides , that were very real and
personal with the shit that went into their lifes..
Hate , of the old school and we have such a rich field of new crap to go after?
the racist ??
Wish there was a time machine to put them where they want to be, sorry to say, modern times they are are on the
proven fringes and will NEVER make a mark or ever a stain in history.
I hold to my china thingy...may not in my life time, but in a sick way I do hope I live to see it.
To those I did hurt,
I apologize, there was a time of doubt of sanity and willing to really want to live. Easy ways are so easy.
Better to go down in major flames.
End results are the same.
dead is dead.
Most of us have seen the changes in the neighborhoods that we live in.
I have monitored police (ham radio) for the last 30 yeares and the up tick in shit
is astounding..
this nation is close to going ballistic. now for the haters , no hitler will not be reborne.,
I attacked my brother from frustration, , from small contacts , wishing for larger , could not travel
because of pets and obligations , (One of my basic deep me,s us cause no harm) and I have ,
not physical , but in a world of total shit heads and their followers , yes I did.
MY major thing that I went ballistic with my brother way being ignored. despite my tryes to heal and
understand,
We split wen I was (12-10) years of age,
so wE were dependent on what the adult's in our lifes.
I again apologize ,if what I accused you, but what can be remembered
and grandparents , Rich your father was dirty.He was the first mayor of national city..
To be turthfull I hated him.
I see him , and the only time it seems it was during the beatings.
Not you ,.. or cliff.
So here I am 60 years later , having tried to connect to be a family again in past in not in heart.
And after at least 5 years of trying , being ignored like my father treated me, ( which is enother story of rage,but for the readers
sheets split, about the time one is born, the father trys to kill.
but survives ,and family says nothing, total time , 0 his knowing or trying.
fast foward , ..
Thought you all could read all of my history,, ..
Eat shit and die..
for the ones that hate me..
I will go down fighting the ones want to chaing history, One of my first statements I have photos
of people , and bodys in gas chambers and later the what I call the smokersl.
Lady.. sorry
for the rest , most of the fokes on this forum. are level headed.
then wen have the
Left that open..this political shit ,,
It makes me sick..
If it keeps I do make a prediction ,..(sp) We are screwed and bluerd and tattoed..
And the hurt is filtering down.,.
The main thing is an apology, to the only one that counts.
the rest , (not the majority) hell I know most have not lost it totally yet.
Bit for the true believers of that Nazi shit.
I will hound you to your grave..
Again I apologize. And this is the last one..!
I went after my brother, and his history..
because of a old tradition of family's and shit that is part of it.;
Rich may not be dirty,
Cliff, he was the active one,.
but being a kid and what hancock grandpairents said ,
I know this is a hard crowd and I am also, fuck you all.\
most I respect, just a small number , I do not,.
and will never will..
This post is an open forum to the lady that I drug into this shit that should haver been mentioned,\
again sorry,, as most can see my attack is not quite over,
Charles