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mrnhtbr2232
10th June 2011, 08:36 PM
Without philosophical insight it would never be possible to advance in life. By extension, to exist as a thinking being one must be honest and examine cause and effect without a false sense of urgency or artificial conclusion. I first noticed inconsistencies in my belief systems earlier this year. Long-held assumptions were beginning to reveal themselves to be untrue and a dissonance set in. I recognized denying certain truths was dishonest, and that to truly be a thinking being I had to surrender my hatred. Several truths began to materialize as a result like judging people individually was honest and people who play by the rules should be respected. How odd I had never allowed myself to confirm the obvious, choosing instead to be the very things I criticized.

I took time off a month ago and began to dismantle my false realities. In the five decades I have walked this earth I have indicted every race, religion, and institution by genuflecting to the belief they were responsible for all of the world's problems. They are not of course, but this false paradigm is low hanging fruit for reactive thinking. All of us begin our journey as products of our environments and are shaped by a chromatic range of suggestions and emotions. As our experience with them grows they can take on a false legitimacy in our subconscious.

It is the ability to see these things as evolutionary instead of static that saves us from ourselves and the one thing that the majority must learn to survive the enslavement of their minds. Those I have laughed off as worthless or inferior are no different than I am in the eyes of tyranny and the top of the pyramid sees us as equal feedstock for vampires. The game of inflaming passions to divide and conquer has been immutable through the ages. As all levels of global society experience a need to justify their labors, their alliances overtake their logic and manifest as the chaos we see all around us.

One of my issues related to this was hate rushing in to fill the void of my reconsideration, being too impatient to wait for more sensible decisions and expressions. By marginalizing the very things I needed to negotiate, hate was the firewall preventing communication with a rich tapestry of guideposts. To be clear for a moment: subduing my prejudices has not sterilized my frustrations and angers. I remain in defiance of licking the boots of my oppressors. I still cry out for the white race and the slaughter of its heritage. I still find the treachery of Jewish and masonic criminals to be anathema to good and worshiping of evil. It is the all means justified at the end mentality (the cause) that is strip mining our souls and motivations (the effect).

By choosing a frame of reference not dependent on flippantly discounting someone else it creates an intrinsic value that cannot be stolen by the invincible and denies their hate tribute. The freedom we seek is already ours - that is what we should all understand and the rest will come easy. There are other truths as well. While I remain safely outside subscription to religious practice, I realize now there is sound moral guidance and valuable teachings to it. This is tempered with the understanding that the written word is often scribed by conquering historians and distorted accordingly. Once again it is the necessity to navigate the fog of half-truths to discover the truth.

And yet another: living by principle based on sound judgment without hatred is empowering. Since beginning to detoxify, I have a new sense of purpose and a sharper sense of analysis. I can now reverse hate's momentum and start pushing it instead to reveal its origins and means to learn about it. All these gains are layering on each other and combining their raw materials to build more complex structures. Each day grows less alarming, and smelling the roses has taken on a new legitimacy.

I am sharing all of this with you because GSUS has played a large role in identifying these truths. Several of you in particular have my greatest respect for your depth of knowledge and the wisdom you share with us. All of you are worthy just for being here and the fact there is not always agreement is precisely why it is valuable. I want to publicly thank one member in particular. It was Awoke's thread a while back about personal growth and letting go of long-held assumptions that inspired me to change and it called me to appear before my own darkness. While I was away from the board he and I emailed about my growing pains and I am grateful for his support. I am here to say GSUS has made a genuine impact on my life, and I now look forward to actively returning with a new-found point of view knowing I am among giants and not slaves.

osoab
10th June 2011, 09:42 PM
I'm glad that you were able to come to terms mrnhtbr2232 (http://gold-silver.us/forum/member.php?3676-mrnhtbr2232). Hope you get back to posting.

On the other hand, the sheeple keep being sheeple.

Now you have to bring understanding to others. You may not change minds, but you may plant seeds.

I also think you need copious amounts of cannabis. :D(insert grinning smiley)

General of Darkness
10th June 2011, 09:52 PM
Well said and true.

I did the settings adjustment earlier but don't have thank you option.
Thinking it may be Firefox add blocker.


Sorry bro, I thought your were talking that we lost the database, but the THANK YOU option isn't ON. I'm sure it will turned on once things get settled.

Back to the OP.

When I hear this song, I view listening to my soul and heart. This is what makes us who we are, some indescribable soul. Love yourself and listen to yourself and you'll be right as rain.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlGwdCNO7Lo

Ponce
10th June 2011, 10:11 PM
I would like to contribute to all this philosophicall talk but that would placed me out of character.......after all .......Ponce is Ponce ........RIGHT?..........I don't live by what others say but rather by what I feel is right......after all......their world is not my world and their feelings are not my feelings.

Hey General? with a name like Mishko Novosel you should be the president and not just a general..... :)

Book
10th June 2011, 10:20 PM
http://www.wired.com/news/images/full/beirut1_f.jpg

http://farm1.static.flickr.com/73/194170987_7e75805861.jpg

http://www.pollsb.com/photos/60/168340-yes_explain.jpg

Look what "Israel" has been doing to their neighbors using weapons from our government. As long as this continues "inner peace" is impossible.

Book
10th June 2011, 10:41 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GYEKh6bKuhI

Love your attackers. Don't be hatin' on 'em Whitey.

Half Sense
12th June 2011, 09:08 AM
Awesome post.

Hate just diminishes us.

Convert it to caution, sadness, irony, or even humor. It works.

Spectrism
12th June 2011, 12:28 PM
I first noticed inconsistencies in my belief systems earlier this year. Long-held assumptions were beginning to reveal themselves to be untrue and a dissonance set in. I recognized denying certain truths was dishonest, and that to truly be a thinking being I had to surrender my hatred. Several truths began to materialize as a result like judging people individually was honest and people who play by the rules should be respected. How odd I had never allowed myself to confirm the obvious, choosing instead to be the very things I criticized.

This sounds like someone has developed a love for truth. It is a powerful awakening.

I recall when I was confronted with that choice. I began to shake everything until I found it had a flaw or was unshakeable. Sometimes we think there are flaws when there are not, so even those perceptions need to be shaken down to basic principles. It is a challenging and rewarding journey.

Neuro
12th June 2011, 12:35 PM
Awesome post.

Hate just diminishes us.

Convert it to caution, sadness, irony, or even humor. It works.Yes I agree, hate is very destructive to those who harbors it, keep an open mind to the fact there are conspirators out there that are out to get you, one day you may even have to get rough with them, but hating them is going to destroy you. Keep a level head. Love of your freedom is a far better motivator rather than hate of your conspirator/oppressor... But do keep track of what they are up to.

Awoke
14th June 2011, 02:57 PM
Glad to see you back, Mrnhtbr. I knew you were going to make this post after your hiatus, because as you stated, we talked during you break. I wasn't sure if you were going to mention the fact that we kept in touch during that time, but I am flattered that you did. I hope you didn't feel obligated, but I think I know you better than that and I doubt that you felt obligated. You and are are very alike in almost all ways, and also different in a few others, namely regarding "Religion". But I see eye to eye with you on almost all things we have discussed. Bottom line is, I have always had the utmost respect for you throughout your membership on these forums, and as I told you a year ago, almost every post you make is quote-worthy, and this post is no different. One day I hope we can meet in real life and have a few beers. Anyways, this post is turning into an ass-kiss-fest, so I'll stop now. lol. I don't know how your trip into the wilderness went, and I'm hoping that you will fill me in with an email or something, so feel free.
In the five decades I have walked this earth I have indicted every race, religion, and institution by genuflecting to the belief they were responsible for all of the world's problems. They are not of course, but this false paradigm is low hanging fruit for reactive thinking This is key. For people like us, who are mentally anti-establishment, you are absolutely correct in stating that the hate of everyone else is low-hanging fruit. It is a simple solution, and this includes the hatred that I was harboring against the "Jews" because while I thought I was ahead of the pack in my research, I was actually falling for the "Multi-level" disguise of Babylonian Talmudist satanists who are disguising themselves as "Jews", leaving a trail of crumbs for those who dig in deeply to find. I am at peace with the conspiracy now, because of this revelation. I realize now that when a serious person digs into the conspiracy, and really looks, they will find a "Jew" under every rock. The peace comes from knowing that the head of the octopus is not (imo) the actual Jews that are of the lines of the 12 tribes, but are in reality satanic imposters, and the plan is two-fold: 1) Enslave the atheistic population in satanic secrecy, keeping them away from education regarding spiritual salvation through Christ. (No other religion is under attack in the world) 2) Make the people who research their enslavement begin to hate the "Jews", even though the satanic elite are not Jews, but are imposters. Anyways, that was my own revelation and growing point, and I thank Jesus and the Apostle John for the to book of Revelation, which was what caused me to finally put it all together. Not your deal.
To be clear for a moment: subduing my prejudices has not sterilized my frustrations and angers. I remain in defiance of licking the boots of my oppressors. I still cry out for the white race and the slaughter of its heritage. I still find the treachery of Jewish and masonic criminals to be anathema to good and worshiping of evil. It is the all means justified at the end mentality (the cause) that is strip mining our souls and motivations (the effect). This is another area that I think we are in agreement on. My signature has not changed. I still educate people on the (not so) slow demise of the white race. People automatically assume when I speak about these things around campfires, etc, that I am a white nationalists, National Socialist, racist, anti-semite, etc. That is far from the truth. I just feel that it is important for white people to make white babies, black people to make black babies, mexican people to make mexican babies, etc. I also think that immigration policies should be reviewed, and the floodgates dreadfully require a cork for a while. But that is my opinion, and I don't force that opinion on anyone. In fact, I try not to force anything on anyone, and try not to be dogmatic, but I will ardently stick to my beliefs with undying strength when I'm under attack or when I am put in a position to share my opinions. Anyways, sorry. Enough about me. I just want to express that I am glad to see you here. When you contacted me and told me you were leaving, I was afraid that we were going to loose yet another extremely important member, so I am glad that is not the case. I would post more, but I have company over, drinking beers on my porch, and I'm being rude right now, so I will end this post here. I look forward to shooting the shit with you here, on the new V-Bulletin GSus.